I want to shake the pillars of your worldTo crack the palisades you hide behindThey’re only made of a bit of fear and wood

During a psychedelic trip sometime back in February I had the realization that in order to make the things I wanted to make and build the connections I wanted to build I needed some stability. And with my husband’s line of work even if I follow him to each next new location he’s still going…

You search for meaning in miserySufferingTo cut yourself into piecesSufferingTo spill enough blood SufferingTo justify you being here and him being gone Spring is hereThe Texan wind will blow on your faceHot and hard and warm and gentleStillSuffering I wonder if in a thunderstormIf you could sit outside and watch it play outAnd not sufferTo…

I found outThe first friend I hadRaped his sisterI found outThe first friend I hadWas raped by his father And I sit hereFat and angry and drinking and drunkAnd you tell me we were playing duck huntWhile his dad touched himAnd everyone knewEveryone knew And what about Brittany and Sarah Lee?And everyone knew We were…

How do I tell you?That the party never endedOnce I hit 21Sobriety unfriendedI wanted you to love me, love meI wanted you to love meLove me Vanity to be expectedFrom a former twink growing fat and pretentiousI never wanted you to leave me, leaveNever wanted you to leave meLeave me There’s nothin’ I could’ve said…