I Watch You Sleep

Sometimes I watch you sleep
Just for a little bit
Face calm and peaceful contorts into
Furrowed brow and frown and whimper for a moment
Then fades away
Sometimes I watch you sleep
The gentle rhythm of your breathing
Chest going up and down, breath in and out
Suddenly it stops

That rhythm has a last beat
For you. For me.
I can’t stand the thought of our separation
Panic, spiral, dread of death
Please, please, please, someone save me from this
This inevitable horror, please! I don’t know if I can take it
What if I’m first, what will he do, what if he’s first what will I do wh-

A sudden snort, a drawn out snore
I’m here again
I’m here again, in this moment with you

Sometimes I watch you sleep
I feel my face relax, I turn on my back
I’m here with you; I should sleep too